Wonderful Saturday Morning

A few Christmases ago Kyle gave me a bound book of all my blog entries from our first two years here. Saturday morning Charlie fell asleep on my chest after his bottle and while he was slept I read through some of what I had written. It was almost eery to read about all of my experiences discovering Europe as a carefree newlywed and then look down on my chest and see my baby in my arms.

When I arrived here I was 25 years old and had been married exactly five months. In re-reading so many entries I felt like I could actually see myself grow as a person and feel more comfortable and confident in my own skin. With each experience I discovered more and more my true thoughts and feelings about things. Finally, I didn't let myself get swayed by others opinions or trying to please anyone, but instead I grew confident in knowing what I wanted and how I felt.


So here I am now, 29 years old and married almost five years with a new baby. I finally feel confident and assured of who I am. Of course I sometimes doubt myself and wonder if I am doing the right thing but it feels wonderful to have a feeling deep within that I am who I am and I know myself.

"It is only when we silent the blaring sounds of our daily existence that we can finally hear the whispers of truth that life reveals to us, as it stands knocking on the doorsteps of our hearts." ~K.T. Jong. This expat experience has given me the rare opportunity to silent the blaring sounds and really hear myself. I have had an incredible amount of time to be able to take a deep look at my life, thoughts and beliefs. I only hope that I can carry this knowledge with me into whatever adventures life holds and remember to listen to my own voice above all others.

And part of being me is telling on myself when I do silly things...

Sometimes I like to randomly click into my archives and see what I was doing on the same date a few years ago. As of today I have written 653 entries so I often forget what I wrote. One time I was wasting time at the computer and clicking around on lots of blogs. I had clicked through so many that I wasn't even paying attention to the webpages anymore. I finally clicked on a tab that was open and read an entry. I thought, "Wow, I really like the way this person thinks!" I looked up to see the web address and guess what it was ... http://www.wingfieldsinbrussels.blogspot.com/ I guess there is nothing better than fully agreeing with yourself!